Train - Mermaid

Not today.  Not tomorrow.  Not next week or next month.  But sometime, someday, I will be with BFF.  When that happens, this will be one song to describe our relationship.  We both love music, and lots of the same kind of music.  We have so many songs that are special to us, but this one is very special to me.  Some of the reasons:



Can't swim so I took a boat to an island so remote
Only Johnny Depp has ever been to it before

I stayed there till the air was clear
I was bored and out of tears, then I saw you washed up on the shore

I can indeed swim.  But my marriage had (has?) gotten to the place that I feel lonely, isolated.  Like I'm on a deserted island all alone.  I'm currently staying in my marriage, until I am free to go.  I'm bored and so numb that I don't even really cry anymore.  This is where BFF finds me most days.

I offered you my coat, thank Godess love can float
Crazy how that shipwreck meant my ship was coming in
We talked till the sun went down
Love on the Puget Sound
My treasure map was on your skin

Her marriage was a shipwreck before I came along.  And that shipwreck meant my ship is coming in... will be coming in.  When we talk, even now, we can talk for hours without realizing it.  Been that way since we first started talking.  And yes, her skin is a treasure map.

Beauty in the water, angel on the beach
Ocean's daughter, I thought love was out of reach
Till I got her, had I known it could come true
I would've wished in '92 for a mermaid just like you
Whoa, just like you, whoa

I can honestly say that I didn't know the feelings of being connected with someone until BFF and I started talking again.  I didn't know whether it was possible to be loved the way I feel love should be expressed.  Until BFF and I connected.  Oh, and '92 was the year I married.

Sharks green with envy, they wonder what you see in me
Funny, but sometimes can't help but wonder that as well
Now life is a holiday, makin' up for the years I paid
The way to this heavenly bay, it went through hell

I do wonder what BFF sees in me.  Very often.  I hope to have time soon to live life as a holiday and make up for the years.  Maybe not so much hell currently, but some days it feels close.

Rescued you by the banyan tree, all the girl fish in the sea
Couldn't hold a candle to you,
they don't have a handle on you,
they don't have a scandal on you,
I love ECCO sandals on you

I think this is what makes my relationship with BFF different than a typical affair.  I see and interact with attractive women all the time.  I have strong, compassionate feelings toward many of my female friends.  I want to be kind, polite, helpful and all that to each of them.  I even will (and have) sacrificed to help some of them.  But none of them have the draw that BFF does.  I don't want an personal, intimate relationship with any of them like I do with BFF.

Savin' me was B-I-G, all the boy fish in the sea
They all wish that they could be me

I see BFF, and I know that when I'm with her, every guy in the room will be more than jealous.  She is an incredible woman and I'm humbled at how she feels about me, even still.  I also know that I want to see her happy, whether that is with me or with someone else.  I hope it is me.

~ Anon ~