So, Why Am I Always Confused?

Well, I am confused.  Both of the women in my life have a way of confusing me and I really don't know how to figure things out.  I guess I'm just really bad at reading signs and hints, or else I'm trying to read into stuff when there isn't anything really there.  (Of course, BFF has the advantage of being able to read here, so she will see this.  I'm not sure now that it was a good idea to tell her about it, but if I didn't I'm not sure I'd have any readers.) :D

So, Why Am I Alone?

Well, I wanted to expand on last night's post.  It was late and I was tired and ready to go to bed.  (Didn't get there for a couple more hours, but still.)  Anyway, I think there is more to say about being alone.  I'll explore it a bit more tonight.  But, I am also drinking now and don't plan to stop just yet.  So this could be interested.

So, What Is My Problem?

It has been a long weekend.  Mrs! is gone and BFF wasn't able to come up, so I've had lots of time on my own.  And, really, that is the core of the problem.  I really don't like being alone.  In fact, that has a lot to do with how I feel about Mrs! and BFF, I think.

So, Why Don't I Just Confront The Problems?

I have only had a couple comments about this blog.  Other than BFF and I, there are a couple more hits, so someone is reading what I write.  It may just be a random hit every once in a while and really only BFF and I are reading, I don't know. :)  But with the lack of actual questions I'll try to answer one that I can imagine people have asked themselves.

So, Why Am I Dead?

I had hoped to post last night since I didn't get to post during the day.  That wasn't possible, though since I ended up taking A3 to his scout testing.  This was not part of my plan, and while I don't mind taking the As to meting and activities, the way I became entangled last night was particularly frustrating.

So, Are You Alone?

Between the entertaining times over the weekend, I realized that I was just plain bored.  We did the movie thing, did the date thing, and even watched the award ceremony for A4.  But between the bits of fun things and distracting things I realized that there wasn't really anything.  I'm surrounded by people, and even interact with them at times, but on the whole, I am alone.

So, Enjoying Your Long Weekends?

I was texting with BFF yesterday and wondering what I should write about today.  One of the benefits of my job is that when I finish a particularly busy project I am granted a day off, that doesn't count against vacation time.  So, with a busy week and a program at A4's school, I took today off.  Nice to have a day off of work.  Except...

So, What About That Laundry?

OK, so at the risk of making myself look like more of an ass of a husband than you already think, I have to pass along the piss-me-off moment from yesterday.  It involves laundry and, as such, is ripe for making me appear to be a horrible person.  Or at least more horrible than I already appear.  So let me give some background, in the hopes that I may appear a little less of an ass.

So, What About Sex?

Since things with Mrs! have generally returned to the way they were before the suicide fight, I've gone back to doing things the way I was before.  That means I'm doing some things in the relationship to keep the peace, including sex.

So, What About Love?

Got a little time to talk to BFF while I headed home.  Nice to chat, but things just aren't where they were with us.  I know this frustrates her (and me), but at the same time I'm not sure I'm ready for more without a clear path to a resolution.  Yeah, I'd love to be back where we were, but I just can't do it just yet.

So, Where Did I Disappear To?

OK, so after a hasty (and admittedly poor) showing on Monday, I didn't post at all yesterday.  Monday work was just plain busy.  I'll apologize for the crappy post, but sometimes that's what you get when I generally am only on here from work.  Since this blog was supposed to be a mostly every day thing, I was a bit frustrated at not posting yesterday.  But, honestly, I really have a good excuse.  It all started as I set aside some work to compose a new blog post.  I was less than a sentence into the post when my phone rang.